Lord, help me to find You in my every day life, in the normal and the small things because Lord I know You are there. Lord, there are no great people, only ordinary, humble, small people who have a great God. Lord, may our focus not be on ourselves, but may it be on You, the author and perfector of our faiths, may it be on the finished work of the Cross. May our hope be found in You and You alone, that we are saved from a redundant, meaningless life headed for eternal destruction solely by the blood of Christ.

Father, I thank You that truly You who did not spare Your own Son, but gave Him up for us all, how will You not also, along with Him, graciously give us all things (Romans 8:32)? I thank You for Jesus. Lord, may we not glory or boast in anything else but the blood of Christ. May we not look to our own selves to get through this life, may we depend upon You to provide for all that we need, above all because You have provided us with a direct way to You, with totaly and complete reconciliation to have a living and active relationship with You which is the sole thing that man needs. Father I thank You for Your Son. May You continue to refine and purify us to be more like Your Son, not because we need to be justified since we already are by the blood of Christ (Heb10:22). In Jesus' name i pray, Amen.

Often I wonder what it means to live for Jesus, what it means to carry our crosses, to deny ourselves. I wonder whether we do enough for Christ, whether we love Him enough. Because seriously, sometimes life in Singapore seems so comfy and sometimes i feel guilty and bad for being comfy. I'm not saying that being comfy is necessarily a bad thing because God provides for His people, but sometimes comfort isn't a good thing. Although when I look around me, though we are so comfortable relative to so many billions of others in the world, the truth is, i doubt people can remain comfortable for too long, because suffering abounds in the world, whether you are from the developed or developing world. maybe we don't have high infant mortality rates, maybe we dont suffer natural disasters in singapore, but we have our own fair share of problems. who has never had a loved one pass away, who has never had people close and dear to you suffer from debilitating illness, it may not beinfective diseases like in the third world, but cancers, neurological disease, DM, stroke, cardiac disease etc. etc. are just as scary if not more because they often tend to be more prolonged than infective diseases. But sometimes i wonder, people are going to jail, burning or dying for Christ, erm, what is 1st world Christian me doing for God. I think we shouldn't take our comfort for granted, i think God does call us into areas of discomfort at various points in our lives, i think physical comfort is one thing, we also have our fair share of emotional and spiritual trials and struggles. but today whilst hanging out with my best friends over dinner and yummy yummy chocolate cake i just felt this sense that really God is in our daily lives. Sometimes the greater challenge is finding God in the normal, in the every day. Not that we shouldn't desire for greater things because i believe there are seasons for greater spirituality and the sense of the divine. But i think every waking moment can and is a divine moment if only we were more aware of it. Like what clare shared about Brother Lawrence. I can be flipping an omletter and that is for Jesus. I can be sitting on bus 171 and that is precious time with Jesus. I can be clerking patients, not evangelising, just clerking, and that is Jesus. I can be lunching with my CG mates, and that is for Jesus. Jesus is with me everywhere, all the time. At my cousin's wedding, looking at my cousins, my dad and his siblings, my grandma and her siblings, all these random uncles and aunties i only see at large extended family events like these, I was just reminded that I am part of this larger family tree. I am someone's daughter, someone's sister, someone's CG mate, someone's friend, one day someone's doctor etc. etc. and i will do well to do my roles well, to daily abide in Jesus so that i may be His love and light to these people whom He's placed around me. not 'great' spiritual stuff here, it's just living every day, but no less important in God's eyes. I come home and my parents are arguing over religion again, usually i just sigh and let it be, i used to complain tons and maybe feel bitter about it, but you know instead of complaining or feeling helpless, I feel led increasingly to turn to Jesus and to implore Him to help me as a daughter show love to my parents, to love them for who they are, to alleviate the great concerns and burdens they carry as parents of our household. Yes to tell my daddy about Christ when opportunities arise, but you know, start with being a good daughter first, start by loving, start by caring, by helping out around the house so that they have fewer issues and problems to deal with. To manifest the love of Jesus in whatever way i can, small and 'big'. I think all God's saints are actually 'normal', it's only that we have a great and extraordinary God. Amen to that.